Gag me!!!

Occassionally I enjoy looking back on my blog to remember good times with my kiddos and good times in my life. Just something to remind me that there are so many more good times to come. I am pumped about blogging each of them!

While I was reviewing my previous blogs I came across several that had stories with Michael in them. For all of you who know me and my life, you know that Michael and I broke up a couple of months ago and you also know that my opinion of that break up is nothing less than being on my knees every night and thanking my lucky stars! It was a bad match from the start and shouldn't have lasted as long as it did but, what can I say, I'm young, dumb and way too forgiving.

So anyway, I went back to read some of my old posts and felt like throwing up! I can't believe I was so 'googly eyed' regarding my relationship with him. It's going to get seriously harsh after this so if you don't want to see my materialistic and snobby side, stop reading.

In my previous blogs, I said his proposal was perfect!??! BAHAHAHAHAHA! Yes, I guess it was sweet and in a way I guess he did listen when I said I didn't want a huge rock... but seriously... the ring was such a joke! I also wrote about how perfect Puerto Rico was... sure the scenery was to die for and I had the best time; but Michael didn't have anything to do with that! He was wasted half the time and ended up losing about $600 in the Casino (all the money we'd brought!), and BLAMED ME for it! We fought half way through the rain forest and didn't speak for most of the trip!!!

Just to make sure that this is clear, my eyes have and will forever be opened. I refuse to allow myself to be taken advantage of, shit on, and disguarded! A moment to brag on myself... I am so proud that I am able to look at my life like this. Analyze it and NEVER make those mistakes again. I am better and, if not me, my girls are way better than anything I can even imagine in my best dreams. It is my responsibility as their mom to show them what a real relationship and a real marriage is all about... and I might be single for the rest of my days, but they sure as hell won't walk away from their childhoods thinking its okay to be treated like dirt.